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Another week has passed. I’m finally done with my first two series of allergy shots. Next round is 12 shots in 3 months, so min of 1 shot a week. I’m going to probably do 2 a week, so I’ll be on the next round in October, and hopefully at maintenance level by the first of the year. Which I hope will help settle down the pollen horde.

Been getting lots of pictures and reports from NecronomiCon. Still regretting not going, even if it was the reasonable thing. It looks like people are having a lot of fun, and there’s lots of cool things. Also, my internet pal Joe Pulver (who also had to skip the con due to health issues) won the Robert Bloch award. I’ll freely admit to happy dancing when I read it. Tonight I’ve been doing a marathon of Dark Adventure Radio Theatre, since I didn’t get to see them do it live this year. Got to get my weird fix after all.

I haven’t been doing much of anything with computers lately, well on my own time that is. I have to replace a drive on Hydra, and I want to move some systems around, but I’m generally lacking in motivation. I used to live for geek projects, but I guess it’s lost some of it’s sparkle after almost 20 years of geek projects. Maybe it will change, who knows?

And I utterly lost my train of thought. Guess I’ll call this a post. Night all.

Sadly, the shoggoths didn’t do their chores.

First full week back at Carcosa Corp, and at Château Innsmouth. Was a rough week mood/depression wise. But I was able to soldier on, and do all the adulting. Patched both stage environments at work. We’ll do production week after next. Have a bunch of boring documentation to do as well. The wild life of a shoggoth wrangler.

Vegging at home today, well vegging and chores. Came home last night, and I went to bed early due to exhaustion. Forced myself to stay in bed til about 9am this morning. Had some weird dreams, including dreaming about a dream home in Victoria BC. Only reason I know that though is that Craigdarroch Castle was part of the dream. (We visited the castle when we stopped in Victoria during the cruise.) It’s nice when my subconscious doesn’t beat me up. Btw, my dream house has a view of the water and lots of room for bookshelves. Shocking, I know. I really liked what little I saw of Victoria, and I’ve been talking about going back there for a longer stay than 4 hours. (I’d like to go to some museums that have ‘Royal’ in the name) We’ll see what happens. I also really want to see Puget Sound/Salish Sea again, the sea was a really dark green, almost black. Definitely was one of the high points of the vacation.

Chores were well, dull. Multiple loads of laundry, since I haven’t done any since I got back from vacation. Store run earlier, picked up the kitchen and general cleaning at home. Allergies are in the ‘annoying’ zone. Really tired of coughing. Oh well, hopefully the shots will start having a real effect by the time the cedar trees go crazy around the holidays.

NecronomiCon is next weekend. Really, really wish I’d been able to make it. Oh well, I’ll make it to Providence one day. On the plus side, I’ll get reports on all the new releases that I’ll need to acquire for the Starry Wisdom Library. And there’s always 2019, and next year’s HPLFF, and who knows what else. So that’s about it for today’s dump of Vulpine brainmeats.

Cruise to Hyperborea

11 days
4 vessels
5 towns/cities
2143 nautical miles.
2 flights.
9 comments on my Cthulhu shirts
15 books finished

So that’s the Alaska Cruise 2017 in a nutshell. While things definitely did not go completely according to plan, I did try to make the most of everything. Came to a few conclusions. One, I still love the ocean, definitely need to spend more time on/near it. I spent hours looking and listening to the ocean, often reading at the same time. Loved the feeling of the ship swaying, helped me get to sleep at night.

The ship was interesting. Huge, bigger than the USS Intrepid aircraft carrier. For those in the crusing know, it was the Carnival Legend. We had a balcony room port side, aft. (aka left and in the back for the non nautical). accomidations were nice, loved the shower. I slept on a couch that was converted to a swin bed, but I spent most of my time in the club chair the room had, great for reading. The food was good, nothing out of this world, but enjoyable. Ship had a very cool library, books as decor mixed with shelves of novels. Would have spent more time there, it was quiet. But the downside was very little airflow (a problem I had on most of the ship), so it was more comfortable to lounge on the balcony.

Alaska was interesting. Saw a glacier up close, saw so many bald eagles, I actually felt a little blaise about seeing them. As for cetaceans, I got to see killer whales, humpback whales and what I think was a striped dolphin (aka, not Flipper) running next to the ship. Parts of Alaska looked like something out of a horror or Lovecraftian story, dark, quiet woods and looming mountains. Gorgeous, but it could have easily been terrifying with a small shift. The towns/cities themselves were…eeh. Right by the cruise docks was full of shops selling ‘cheap’ jewelry and tshirts and stuff. And we didn’t spend enough time in any of them for me to explore the more interesting parts. On the other down side, I’m as badly allergic to Alaska as I am to Texas. I was miserable from day 3 on with ‘cedar fever’ symptoms, which I haven’t gotten rid of.

We also stopped in Victoria BC. I liked this city more, it had a better ‘vibe’ and the houses and building had more history to them. Again, I didn’t get to explore…which was sad, since there’s a famous bookstore there. Already have made some mental plans to go back some year. Also, I’m told the museums are amazing. Seattle, where we were for a few days before the cruise. Did the usual tourist stuff (Space Needle, Pike Place Market, etc). People who know me also shouldn’t be surprised that I went to the Seattle Aquarium and spent a lot of time trying to communicate with the octopus there. Had some really tasty sushi one night. (no connection). There’s a small laundry list of things I’d want to go back to Seattle to do, but it was nice to visit.

So that’s things in a very small nutshell. Lots more to talk about, but if I tried to record everything I’d probably go nuts. My depression and allergies were kind of nuts on the trip, a cruise of several thousand people is challenging the likes of me. But my friends were really ok with me spending large chunks of the cruise in the stateroom reading. My friends get me, and I’m glad they talked me into going on a cruise. I may do it again some time, when things are a little more stable. I’ll probably post some trivia stuff, and some of the pictures I have at another time. Night all.

Bad news about Necronomicon 2017

Some not so good news for my fellow NecronomiCon people. Due to unexpected bills, a lack of available PTO, and general exhaustion, I’m not going to make it to Providence. Definitely not what I want to do, but it’s what is best for me in the long run. I’ll be there in spirit, and I’ll do my eldritchness to be there in 2019. Sorry to all my cultist pals I was planning on meeting or seeing again, this year has definitely not gone according to plan.

I’ll post about the cruise later on in the week, I’m still drained as heck. Miss the ocean. Oh well.

All aboard the Sumatry Queen for fame and glory!

It’s travel day. Working from home today, then I’ll get picked up and head to the airport for my evening flight. Then it’s Vulpine’s Big Adventure. I’m going to be mostly offline for the trip. I’m going to try keeping away from social media and from online news. I don’t know how well this will work, but it’s the plan. If you want/need to get ahold of me, or have some link I need to see when I get back to the real world, email is your best option. vulpine-at-innsmouth dot net.

The plan for today is to make feeble attempts at getting some work finished up, while tweaking on travel foo. And twitching. I’m going to try to put journal entries together on my tablet during the trip, but I’ll probably not post them til I get back. So don’t worry at general radio silence. Wish me luck, smooth sailing, and a lack of security theater. Cthulhu Fhtagn! and all that jazz.

Sailor on the Seas of Fhtagn

Well, it’s less than a week til I head up to Seattle, and then get on a ship to Alaska and back. My biggest trip since I was a kid, with my folks. 11 days away from Château Innsmouth. Going to be…A mix of things. Honestly I’m kind of stressed about things. Travel makes me anxious, and this has all kinds of additional stressors added. But, I’ll deal. I’ve spent today getting my tasks in order. Laundry, shopping, packing (yes I’m packing everything now, rather than flipping out later in the week). Already cut my wardrobe down so I could get everything packed. Of course, I’ll probably pull everything out and repack it before the week is out.

So yeah, I’ll gone for a long while. Not that I’ve been all that chatty on here, but I don’t plan to be all that connected while on the cruise. I guess that’s part of the anxiety, intentionally trying to disconnect for a while. Not completely, as I’m using my tablet for reading as usual. (I will bring a paper book or two just in case). I also will be bringing a bluetooth keyboard so I can keep journal entries on it, or at least notes of our adventures. Also have my camera, though I tend to be pretty lazy about taking pictures. Probably will spend most of my camera time taking sea photos.

Besides the trip, it’s been a crazy couple of weeks. Busy with work, trying to get all my allergy shots in on time. Got my new, bifocal glasses today. Adapted to them pretty quick, of course I got the fancy no line/progressive lenses. Will be nice to be able to read small print book again without straining. Been fighting a kind of stalemate battle with my anxiety/depression. Keep trying to dig my heels in so it doesn’t get a bigger foothold. Lots of reading, lots of movies. Some socializing, but it’s been hard. I like being at Château Innsmouth, it’s full of things I like. *wink* Oh well, I’ll deal.

Also been plotting on my Providence trip for Necronomicon 2017. It’s actually a less stressful trip, even though I’m going solo. Only going to be gone about half the time, and I’m pretty much staying in the same area of Providence most of the time. Of course, there’s a lot of social activity, but that’s with Lovecraftians, which previous experience tells me I’ll find easier than most events. And I can always do my own rambles along Grandpa Theobald’s streets. More plotting when I get back I think.

So that’s about it. About to call it a night and go to bed. Books to read, and sleeps to have. If I don’t post anything before I leave, see you all in August. Iä! Iä! Cthulhu Fhtagn!

Computational Demonology for Fun and Prophets.

It’s Sunday. Long weekends are a good thing, even if last night my mood kind of tanked. Woke up kind of off still, but fighting it with Eurohorror, noodles, and a good long shower. Self care, it’s what’s for breakfast.

Social time yesterday was fun, yay seeing friends. Random hot chocolate craving was sated. Fought off the tanked mood with weird horror movies, and geeking. Starting the process of bringing my OpenSuSE VMs all up to 42.2… just in time for 42.3 to be released shortly. (also updated my Ubuntu VM, but that wasn’t any big deal). Went to bed around midnight, so of course a server lit up and wanted attention. Not a hard fix. just there was much eyerolling on my part. Had to do some more basic foo this morning. Need to log into the ticket system and close the automatic tickets generated at some point.

Plans for today are to hang out with Amythest and Nymaz at some point. Before that I need to swing by the office and pickup my laptop (I left it on Friday). I only need it if I’m not at home. Was going to get it yesterday, but I ended up going straight home from the gather. Not a big fan of the work laptop (windows, ugg), but I don’t see a reason to buy a high end laptop, or even try to setup my old Thinkpad to play nice with Carcosa either. Laptops have little appeal to me now a-days, I can do most everything with Cthäat Aquadingen (my Nexus 7) when I’m not at home, so why add another device ? (Besides the shiny factor). Hmm, probably should update the Thinkpad, it’s been a while.

While I’m waiting on the plan to come together, I’ve been watching Spanish horror flicks First ‘Werewolf Shadow’. Paul Naschy vs vampires (he’s the werewolf). Spent half the movie trying to remember where I’d heard the soundtrack, they reused the music from one of the Blind Spanish Zombie Knights Templar movies. Now watching ‘Beneath Still Waters’, flooded town holds a hidden occult secret. Made by the same production company and filmed around the same time as my beloved ‘Dagon’. It’s cheese, but it’s fun cheese.

That’s about all I have right now. Hoping for a quiet and restful rest of the long weekend. Catch you all on the flipside.

The Three-Lobed Burning Eye Wants You!

Huzzah for Friday. Have had a up and down week. I’m still aiming upwards, but I have had a bunch of anxiety foo dragging me down. Top of it was doing my 6 month self eval. I hate doing them at the best of times, and given my recent stress foo, and a format that I had never used before, well it drove me kind of crazy. But, it’s done, and I’ve gotten a number of things done at work, so I’m trying to balance out the bad with the logical positive. Oh speaking of work, due to the new monitoring system we’re using, we’ve started an oncall rotation. This is my week (Wed to Wed). It’s weird to be officially on call, we’ve always done it on a ad-hoc basis, and it worked well, but since we’re working with a separate monitoring group, that really wouldn’t work. Oh well, it’s only one week out of three. Little stress on that, just oddness.

But, it’s a 4 day weekend for me. Very few plans for the weekend, some social time with friends. Some chores, some geek stuff, a lot of reading is also planned. Starting off the night by listening to ‘The Haunter of the Dark. one of my favorite HPL stories as a radio play. I’m also working on updates here at Château Innsmouth, physical systems first, then starting to update the VM horde. There will be Spanish Werewolves and other oddness in the movies tonight.

Speaking of oncall, got an alert from a server. Not a real oncall issue, it’s a dev version of a ticket system, but I can fix it really quick and be done.

Well, that’s about all I have right now. Going to call this a post. Catch you all later.

Slowly climbing out of the hole…

Hey there cultists, how goes ? It’s been a busy week at Carcosa Corp. Got some of my assignments done, or at least within range. I also finally got my passport in the mail. So I can officially enter Canada on my cruise next month. Assuming Canada lets me of course.

Mood has generally improved. Still running into depression ninjas and anxiety, but I’m getting past that with less effort. Books are back to being fun, and I’m not as lacking in focus. These are good things. I’m hoping it lasts.

Spent today watching movies with friends during the day, then came home. My AC is leaking, and I’ve been trying to stop it, then trying to clean up my bathroom and kitchen so if I have to get maintenance over here, it’s not a huge deal. Well beyond hating people in Château Innsmouth. On the plus side, I got some packages, a tshirt from the HP Lovecraft Historical Society and a cast fox skull that glows in the dark from Catalyst Studios. It’s good to know nifty geeky people, and buy their things. You should buy their things. *wink*

Not much else, watching a Paul Naschy flick called ‘Inquisition’. I do love the 70’s Eurohorror genre, especially the period pieces. Sorta like the Hammer horror pieces cranked up to 11. Plus unlike the Hammer pieces, I keep finding new (to me) flicks. Only problem is, they’re pretty much an taste I don’t share with my friends. Oh well, some things are best enjoyed in private.

That’s about it for right now, after the movie I’ll head to bed and book and hopefully have a good night’s sleep. Night cultists.

As it was written in the Scrolls of Sutekh…

Well it’s the weekend again, so it means I should throw some words on virtual paper. Get the brainmeats out of the way quick, being back on seroquel means I’m sleeping more/better, but my anxiety is still way out there. (not expecting immediate fix, I know better). Depression lurks in a ninja kind of way, I see good things, I feel good things, but it leaps out every now and again in a nihilistic kind of way that reminds me that I’m still rather broken. But I’ve been broken before, and I’ve put myself together, repeatedly. I am a New Yorker after all, we’re survivors.

So enough strum und drang. What is best in life Vulpine? Well, I’m not Conan, so lets start with books. Been reading a bunch of old school Mythos still. Got a pile of other stuff to read, but other than a little history it’s all tentaclular horrors. Listened/ing to a few books by Charlie Stross to get in the mood for his latest Laundry File book next month. Not the whole series, just enough to get back in the series. So many books, so little time.

Went to see ‘The Mummy’ today. A solid bit of cheese, with a side of ham from Russell Crowe. Yes it could have been much better, but it still was fun and Sofia Boutella was a nice mix of creepy, evil, and lovely. Plus, she was literally covered in hieratic script, so a walking book. Sign me up for the cult please. *grin* Also, for any Lovecraftians who’ve seen it, did anyone look at the red jewel McGuffin and think ‘Shining Trapezohedron’ ? Or was that just me trying to make everything into a Mythos reference

What will I do tomorrow? Probably just chores and stuff. Been meaning to clean up the bedroom for months now, may just pop an audiobook or podcast in and spend a while in there trying to get things organized. This is alongside a store run, laundry and similar stuff, so I may set reasonable goals instead. Assuming I don’t just hide in bed with a book, or within a movie marathon of cheese and gore. We’ll see. For now though, going to call this a post before it’s technically Sunday. Laters cultists.