Still of the plague

And a week passes, where I spent most of it at home being sick. Went back to the doctor on Thursday, chest xrays look clear, so we’re trying steroids and more cough syrup, and my first inhaler, since my breathing is still more labored than it should be. Phlegm is not my friend.

I only worked a half day on Friday, mostly to get there for a meeting. The next week is going to be pretty busy, so I need to be back something resembling 100%. So I’m spending the weekend pretty much at home chilling out.

I’m a little stir crazy, I keep trying to think of something to do that doesn’t take much physical energy. Château Innsmouth is a bit of a wreck, though I’m picking up bit by bit. Been binge watching Clive Barker movies, including all 9 Hellraisers (yes, there are 9. No, there shouldn’t be). Reading a lot of history and Mythos stuff. Escape stuff for a Vulpine.

Not much else going on, movies and VM foo this afternoon. Trying to not worry about what an unplanned 7 days of PTO in the last two weeks does to my vacation plans, or what I’m going to be like come Monday. *sigh* I am very sick of being sick. But hopefully Cthulhu will lay his healing feelers upon me and I’ll feel better soon. *crosses tentacles*

Sick again.

Well, I’m sick again. Real sick, as in I’ve been out sick 3 days this week, with a doctor visit this morning after spending half the night spasm coughing. Doctor punted, it’s either flu or pneumonia. They could do tests and specify, but I’m still paying on my deductible and honestly, I wanted out of there at speed, so he gave me the option to get both tamiflu and antibiotics, along with the codeine cough syrup. Got the scripts filled, messaged the boss and coworkers and came home. I’m running on nearly no sleep for the last few days, but my attempt at a nap became an anxiety spike of too many thoughts.

Having pneumonia right now is very weird, since 2 years ago almost to the day that Mom was being moved around post the bout of pneumonia she had before she died. The fact that I’m sick again, or still, or gods know what this year isn’t helping. I’m more than a little depressed over the whole thing right now.

So I’ve spent the day watching Clive Barker movies for “reasons” First 3 ‘Hellraiser’ flicks to start, I was thinking of doing all nine of them. (Yes, there are nine…that fact seems to boggle a lot of friends of mine). Then I switched tracks to ‘Lord of Illusions’ which grows on me with each viewing. Now watching a more recent Barker flick, ‘Book of Blood’. Which is a weird little ghost/haunting story. Not sure what’s next. Ok, after some false starts I decided to stick with the Barker movies, and now watching ‘The Midnight Meat Train’.

So that’s about it, I’m going to be staying in all weekend. Not what I wanted to do, but oh well. Hopefully I can swing up to being healthy again to go back to work on Monday. I’m kind of blah, lonely sick person. But it will get better. It always does. One of these lifetimes.

Sunday of the not much

Last night’s router foo went smooth, rebooted around 1am, and took about 2 minutes to come back up. I stayed up later, vaguely worried that it would bounce again. It happens, especially when the other side figures out they missed something. But it didn’t. So I stayed up for the time change (grumbles about Daylight Savings), and finished my marathon on Dan Brown movies. Slept less than well, bad/weird dreams. Woke up, didn’t want to. Futzed around for a bit, then went back to bed. Didn’t really sleep, which is probably good for tonight’s sleep.

Made myself get moving and go to the store, Walmart on a Sunday is not conducive to one’s faith in humanity. Got what I needed, stopped by Wendy’s for a late lunch and came home. Sorted though the massive amounts of paperwork in my filing cabinet. Well, kind of sorted. I boxed all of Mom’s stuff in a plastic tote, didn’t sort, just piled. Then sorted what was left (mine) Now…now I think I’m going go hide with a book til bedtime. Monday morning will show up soon enough. Catch you all later.

Saturday of friends, books and lamb

Well I managed to sleep in today. Not as much as I’d wanted, but better than being up at work time. Didn’t run any errands before the coffee gather, I just bummed around the house til it was time to leave. Ran over to the coffee place and met up with the Ufies. Hung out, discussed geek jobs, Minecraft and why you would twerk trees (don’t ask). Was fun to see friends. We hung out for about 2 hours, then parted ways to go do adulting.

Well, not much adulting for me, I went to a Half Price Books I hadn’t been to in a long time, didn’t find anything too fun. Then I went downtown to King Tut’s for some tasty Egyptian lamb, and then back home. Threw the laundry in the wash, and fired up ‘The DaVinci Code’, as for some reason I was in the mood for Tom Hanks to describe symbols. Also, since I’m going to be up all hours I can watch it, and the two sequels will keep me entertained til the wee hours. Hoping the router update is quick and painless.

Not much else. Just going to be quiet here at Château Innsmouth, watch my movies and go to bed once work is complete. *waves a tentacle* Catch you all later.

May the weekend gods be nice to us all

Weekly post time. Work week was ok, if not amazing. Still really like the job and the people I work with. Occasionally get frustrated with working in big corporation environments, and with some of the past decisions we have to work with. Still better than the Shoggoth Pit. And my complaints are low.

Brainmeats have been mean. General low grade depression, with the return of the nasty anxiety dreams from hell. I’ve also been pretty antisocial and wanting to avoid humanity (when I’m not hoping Cthulhu rises from the deep and goes for snacky time). It’s not been fun. Woke up this morning after more anxiety dreams, but for a change I wasn’t down. Magic of Fridays I guess.

Came home after work, been watching movies and updating the VM horde. Also spent my tax return monies finally. Nothing big (didn’t get much back) just a replacement laptop bag, and some bits of Cthulhu stuff for Château Innsmouth. Probably should have spent it on debts or on future travel plans, but why not. Cultists need cultstuffs. I also really need to start showing off how Château Innsmouth is turning out. *grin*

Speaking of travel, plans are coming together for both the Alaska cruise, and the Pilgrimage to Providence. I’m kind of more exciting about Providence at the moment, but as the Musketeers reminded me, I’ll have days at sea with a balcony looking over the water. And half joking about me sleeping out there…*grin* I also got the paperwork setup for my passport, i just need to make an appointment with the local post office for the photos and to submit things. Not waiting til the last minute. Only been meaning to get this done since I was I was a teen. Oh well, better late than never.

Weekend plans are to hang out with Ufies Saturday at a local coffee house. Beyond that, nothing really yet. I may work on chores, or I may run around doing stuff. Or I could just hide at home. Home is nice after all. We’ll see. Oh, I have to sleep in, since I’ll be up late tomorrow to monitor a router reboot. Should be a 15 min fix, but if I don’t watch it, it will have issues, and I’ll get a wake up call. Rather stay up and do the waking. As for why it’s me, well one coworker did a late shift already this week, and the other’s been fighting off a bug. Plus, I kind of miss being up to wee hours on a Saturday. So lets hope things go smooth. And lets hope for a relaxing weekend.

Plans go awry and other tales.

Had plans for this afternoon, Lego Batman and dinner. But things got canceled at the last minute, for understandable reasons. So I randomly went to a bookstore, got a few things off my wishlists, and then did the weekly groceries. After dealing with Walmart, especially the crazies in the parking lot. Came home, unloaded the groceries, and I’ve camped out with 80’s cheese-horror.

Speaking of cheese, ordered a pizza. Going to …

*time passes, not much though*

Well psychic pizza delivery just delivered my pizza right as I wrote the above. Yay food. Besides movies, I’ll probably finish ‘Dust and Shadows’ tonight. Lets see if Sherlock Holmes can beat Jack the Ripper. No plans of yet for tomorrow.

And I forgot this post…oh well. Laundry is in the wash, I’m watching a Hammer flick, and I’ll call this a post. Catch you all later.

From the Starry Wisdom Library: A Review of ‘Winter Tide’

One of the best bits of Lovecraftian lore I’ve read in the last 5 years was Ruthanna Emrys’ ‘The Legacy of Earth’. A novella about a Innsmouth Marsh who is living in San Francisco after World War II. Now anyone who’s read or talked to me any great degree knows I’m rather pro Deep One. Those last few paragraphs where Robert Olmsted talks of the wonder and glory of those living under the sea…it’s always had a special place in my swim bladder. So a story from the point of view of an Innsmouth native, I’m sold. I’ve sung the praises of this story before, so when I heard the author had a novel of the future adventures of Aphra Marsh, well I may have happy danced a bit.

Skip ahead to last Cthulhumas, and said author said ‘Hey I have ARCs, tell me about your Winter Solstice Traditions, and you may win one’. So I posted, and guess what, I won one. Yay for pre-reading preordered books. So, in thanks here is my quick review of ‘Winter Tide’.

After the events of ‘The Legacy of Earth’, Aphra is asked to return to Massachusetts to look into possible use of Aeonist magic by foreign powers. Shockingly, it’s at Miskatonic U, which is where most of the contents of the libraries of Innsmouth ended up. There is wild library usage, visited to relatives under the sea, flashbacks to life behind the wire, accidental magic usage by stupid college kids, Yithians being pissy, and the wild world of early Cold War spycraft. Yes, it sounds like it’s confusing and muddled from the above, but seriously it works together.

Now, if you think the Canon of Grandpa Theobald is the measure to all other tales, you’ll have issues. This isn’t Zadok Allen’s Innsmouth. To give you a non-spoiler, people in Innsmouth call the rocky island offshore ‘Union Reef’ not ‘Devil Reef’. The lead character is female and Innsmouthian, and spunky. The other characters in her investigation party are not classic Lovecraft W.A.S.P.s either. There’s no flinching at how sexism and racism was in 40’s New England, especially in universities. The worship of the Great Old Ones is basically no different than any other religion. Including that some people are just like everyone else, except their god has tentacles, and that others are complete maniacs and kill people. Pretty much like any religion I can mention… Belief isn’t evil, knowledge isn’t evil. Evil is what you choose to do with both.

Long paragraph short, if you want your deep ones evil, pass on this book. If you want to see things from a different point of view, give it a read. 4 out of 5 tentacles up. Winter Tide is due out on April 4th, 2017, for Kindle and Hardcover.

P.S. I preordered both the hardback and the kindle edition before I was sent the ARC. I still have them preordered, yes I enjoyed it enough to buy it when I got it for free.

Horror and the literate Vulpine

Had a good Saturday. Woke up way early, not originally the plan but I had weird dreams and I just wanted to be out of that weirdness. Did the usual Saturday foo (store run, other chores). I was going to leave early to go raid a bookstore and be social with friends, but I ended up dealing with a fiddly database server, so I didn’t leave til later than I planned. Not a huge deal, just felt a tad off. Finally did leave, and headed up to the flagship Half Price Books in Dallas. Sold a few DVDs back, as much to clear up space as anything else, besides a few bucks I got a 10% off coupon for my purchases. Useful that. I only picked up 3 books, a bibliography of Lovecraft (it’s the older edition, so it’s out of date on stuff but still useful), a book called ‘The Magick Bookshop’, stories about an occult bookshop, and ‘Secret Agent 666: Aleister Crowley, British Intelligence and the Occult’, which I’ve had on my esoterica wishlist for years. Should make for some interesting reading. Well, not the bibliography, that’s going to be more for digging into randomly.

After the book raid, I went to visit some friends and watch movies. We ended up shockingly watching horror flicks, well 2 of us did, while a certain raptor played Minecraft. Worked out well, got some puppy time, got to talk geek, was good. Had an amusing conversation with J about horror around the world, and we came to the realization that I’ve seen a LOT of horror movies from all over. I could rattle off theme differences between Spanish, Italian and French horror, or how Korean horror is what happens when you take Japanese and Hong Kong horror movies, and turn it up to 11. But I couldn’t tell you about Vietnamese horror cinema at all, or names for Indian horror flicks (though I’m pretty sure Bollywood has some, and they have musical numbers). We also agreed that the world needs more Middle Eastern horror, and there’s probably a ton of African movie makers who will scare the pants off people. (Not just South Africa, but Nigeria and others). So much horror, so little time.

Came home a while ago, watching more horror (Hammer Films). Book time in a while, then hopefully getting to sleep in. A fox can dream at least.

Checking in

Was a weird week. Spent all of my 3 day weekend home recovering. I cheerfully could have called in Tuesday or Wednesday as well, but I put on my big cultist robes and went to work. Was kind of glad to see people actually. I’m still not 100%, but I’m close (minus the perpetual allergy argument). Mood was pretty lousy though this week. Between being sick, a whole lot of negative memories rising to the surface, and reality being pretty depressing. At least my subconscious eased up on me while I was asleep, with a lack of anxiety dreams. I kind of snapped out of it this morning, as Fridays often fix the ills in my head.

As I said last post, I’ll be back to patching on Sunday evening. Approx 30 servers this go-round, but I’ll have at least one other admin patching, and other bodies to do support tests and verify applications. So it should be fairly smooth. Week will be a tad short, but that’s ok. I still have social plans for tomorrow and for Sunday prior to patching.

So what’s up in the land of Vulpine besides work and illness? Lots of books, lots of reading. For some odd reason most of what I’ve read has been set in London, England between 1890-1920. Originally there was no plan, but between a couple of Mythos tales, and pastiches of Sherlock Holmes and Carnacki the Ghost Finder, and another period fantasy bit I’ve spent a lot of mental shoe leather wandering around London. Currently reading ‘Dust and Shadow’ which pits Sherlock against Jack the Ripper. I’m also hoping to have a spare weekend day in the next few weeks where I feel up to finishing up on the rearranging of the Starry Wisdom Library and building of at least one new bookcase. Hopefully I’ll be sans plague in time to do this before summer hits. Bedroom also needs work, but that’s less pressing. Less books in there. And more work.

Ok, that’s about all I have for right now. I have tons of bright ideas for posts, but usually they get detailed just as I’m getting ready for bed. I’m starting to think I need a voice recorder to ramble into so I remember these quirky ideas. For now though, I’m going to enjoy my Friday night hermit. Catch you all later.

Sinuses, Patching, and stuff

Been trying to write a post for a few days now, I have very little focus outside of work patching. Worked my tail off the last 3 days. fielded misunderstandings, and and got kudos from of managers in the dev area. Which made all the tail working worth it. So the first round of patching is done, second run is a week from Sunday, then the final bits are the Thursday afterwards. Busy times for this shoggoth wrangler.

So of course my cedar fever and sinus infection rebounds, felt blah on Wednesday, bad Thursday, and utterly miserable yesterday. So after I finished work yesterday I went back to CareNow. So, new antibiotics, oral steroids and pain meds. Started the pain and antibiotics last night, today was the steroids (per pharmacist, he said to wait unless I liked being up all night).

Slept pretty lousy though. Woke up early, took meds, futzed around for a bit, then went back to bed for an hour. Didn’t really sleep, but I ended up sweating like crazy as the low grade fever broke. So I got up again, and while I don’t feel good, I do feel better. I don’t think I’ll be doing much this weekend. I’ve been googling things like food delivery (besides pizza and Chinese food), and drop off laundry service. Because I don’t think I’ll have the tentacles to do it myself, and I’m way behind. So it might just be worth it to me to pay someone else to do it. We’ll see.

So yeah, still sick, still tired. Just talked to the friends I was going to go visit today, and yeah, not leaving the house. So, plan B will be watching Superhero movies and not doing much in the way of chores. There may be books, or naps in the future. Or both. Mostly though, I’m just going to rest. And hopefully by the time I’m back in the office I’ll feel human again. Catch you all later.