Another week has passed. I’m finally done with my first two series of allergy
shots. Next round is 12 shots in 3 months, so min of 1 shot a week. I’m
going to probably do 2 a week, so I’ll be on the next round in October,
and hopefully at maintenance level by the first of the year. Which I hope
will help settle down the pollen horde.
Been getting lots of pictures and reports from NecronomiCon. Still regretting
not going, even if it was the reasonable thing. It looks like people are
having a lot of fun, and there’s lots of cool things. Also, my internet
pal Joe Pulver (who also had to skip the con due to health issues) won the
Robert Bloch award. I’ll freely admit to happy dancing when I read it.
Tonight I’ve been doing a marathon of Dark Adventure Radio Theatre, since
I didn’t get to see them do it live this year. Got to get my weird fix
I haven’t been doing much of anything with computers lately, well on my
own time that is. I have to replace a drive on Hydra, and I want to move
some systems around, but I’m generally lacking in motivation. I used to
live for geek projects, but I guess it’s lost some of it’s sparkle after almost
20 years of geek projects. Maybe it will change, who knows?
And I utterly lost my train of thought. Guess I’ll call this a post. Night
First full week back at Carcosa Corp, and at Château Innsmouth. Was a rough
week mood/depression wise. But I was able to soldier on, and do all the
adulting. Patched both stage environments at work. We’ll do production
week after next. Have a bunch of boring documentation to do as well.
The wild life of a shoggoth wrangler.
Vegging at home today, well vegging and chores. Came home last night, and
I went to bed early due to exhaustion. Forced myself to stay in bed til
about 9am this morning. Had some weird dreams, including dreaming about a
dream home in Victoria BC. Only reason I know that though is that
Craigdarroch Castle was part of the
dream. (We visited the castle when we stopped in Victoria during the
cruise.) It’s nice when my subconscious doesn’t beat me up. Btw, my
dream house has a view of the water and lots of room for bookshelves.
Shocking, I know. I really liked what little I saw of Victoria, and I’ve
been talking about going back there for a longer stay than 4 hours.
(I’d like to go to some museums that have ‘Royal’ in the name) We’ll see
what happens. I also really want to see Puget Sound/Salish Sea again, the
sea was a really dark green, almost black. Definitely was one of the high
points of the vacation.
Chores were well, dull. Multiple loads of laundry, since I haven’t done
any since I got back from vacation. Store run earlier, picked up the kitchen
and general cleaning at home. Allergies are in the ‘annoying’ zone. Really
tired of coughing. Oh well, hopefully the shots will start having a real
effect by the time the cedar trees go crazy around the holidays.
NecronomiCon is next weekend. Really, really wish I’d been able to make it.
Oh well, I’ll make it to Providence one day. On the plus side, I’ll get
reports on all the new releases that I’ll need to acquire for the Starry
Wisdom Library. And there’s always 2019, and next year’s HPLFF, and who
knows what else. So that’s about it for today’s dump of Vulpine brainmeats.
2143 nautical miles.
9 comments on my Cthulhu shirts
15 books finished
So that’s the Alaska Cruise 2017 in a nutshell. While things definitely did
not go completely according to plan, I did try to make the most of everything.
Came to a few conclusions. One, I still love the ocean, definitely need
to spend more time on/near it. I spent hours looking and listening to
the ocean, often reading at the same time. Loved the feeling of the ship
swaying, helped me get to sleep at night.
The ship was interesting. Huge, bigger than the USS Intrepid aircraft
carrier. For those in the crusing know, it was the Carnival Legend. We had a balcony room
port side, aft. (aka left and in the back for the non nautical).
accomidations were nice, loved the shower. I slept on a couch that
was converted to a swin bed, but I spent most of my time in the club chair
the room had, great for reading. The food was good, nothing out of this
world, but enjoyable. Ship had a very cool library, books as decor mixed
with shelves of novels. Would have spent more time there, it was quiet. But
the downside was very little airflow (a problem I had on most of the ship),
so it was more comfortable to lounge on the balcony.
Alaska was interesting. Saw a glacier up close, saw so many bald eagles,
I actually felt a little blaise about seeing them. As for cetaceans, I
got to see killer whales, humpback whales and what I think was a striped
dolphin (aka, not Flipper) running next to the ship. Parts of Alaska looked
like something out of a horror or Lovecraftian story, dark, quiet woods and
looming mountains. Gorgeous, but it could have easily been terrifying
with a small shift. The towns/cities themselves were…eeh. Right by the
cruise docks was full of shops selling ‘cheap’ jewelry and tshirts and stuff.
And we didn’t spend enough time in any of them for me to explore the more
interesting parts. On the other down side, I’m as badly allergic to Alaska
as I am to Texas. I was miserable from day 3 on with ‘cedar fever’
symptoms, which I haven’t gotten rid of.
We also stopped in Victoria BC. I liked this city more, it had a better ‘vibe’
and the houses and building had more history to them. Again, I didn’t get
to explore…which was sad, since there’s a famous bookstore there. Already
have made some mental plans to go back some year. Also, I’m told the museums
are amazing. Seattle, where we were for a few days before the cruise. Did
the usual tourist stuff (Space Needle, Pike Place Market, etc). People who
know me also shouldn’t be surprised that I went to the Seattle Aquarium and
spent a lot of time trying to communicate with the octopus there. Had some
really tasty sushi one night. (no connection). There’s a small laundry list
of things I’d want to go back to Seattle to do, but it was nice to visit.
So that’s things in a very small nutshell. Lots more to talk about, but
if I tried to record everything I’d probably go nuts. My depression and
allergies were kind of nuts on the trip, a cruise of several thousand people
is challenging the likes of me. But my friends were really ok with me
spending large chunks of the cruise in the stateroom reading. My friends
get me, and I’m glad they talked me into going on a cruise. I may do it
again some time, when things are a little more stable. I’ll probably post
some trivia stuff, and some of the pictures I have at another time. Night
Some not so good news for my fellow NecronomiCon people. Due to unexpected bills, a lack of available PTO, and general exhaustion, I’m not going to make it to Providence. Definitely not what I want to do, but it’s what is best for me in the long run. I’ll be there in spirit, and I’ll do my eldritchness to be there in 2019. Sorry to all my cultist pals I was planning on meeting or seeing again, this year has definitely not gone according to plan.
I’ll post about the cruise later on in the week, I’m still drained as heck. Miss the ocean. Oh well.
It’s travel day. Working from home today, then I’ll get picked up and
head to the airport for my evening flight. Then it’s Vulpine’s Big Adventure.
I’m going to be mostly offline for the trip. I’m going to try keeping
away from social media and from online news. I don’t know how well
this will work, but it’s the plan. If you want/need to get ahold of me,
or have some link I need to see when I get back to the real world,
email is your best option. vulpine-at-innsmouth dot net.
The plan for today is to make feeble attempts at getting some work finished
up, while tweaking on travel foo. And twitching. I’m going to try to put
journal entries together on my tablet during the trip, but I’ll probably
not post them til I get back. So don’t worry at general radio silence.
Wish me luck, smooth sailing, and a lack of security theater. Cthulhu
Fhtagn! and all that jazz.
Well, it’s less than a week til I head up to Seattle, and then get on a
ship to Alaska and back. My biggest trip since I was a kid, with my folks.
11 days away from Château Innsmouth. Going to be…A mix of things. Honestly
I’m kind of stressed about things. Travel makes me anxious, and this has
all kinds of additional stressors added. But, I’ll deal. I’ve spent today
getting my tasks in order. Laundry, shopping, packing (yes I’m packing
everything now, rather than flipping out later in the week). Already cut
my wardrobe down so I could get everything packed. Of course, I’ll probably
pull everything out and repack it before the week is out.
So yeah, I’ll gone for a long while. Not that I’ve been all that chatty on
here, but I don’t plan to be all that connected while on the cruise. I
guess that’s part of the anxiety, intentionally trying to disconnect for
a while. Not completely, as I’m using my tablet for reading as usual.
(I will bring a paper book or two just in case). I also will be bringing
a bluetooth keyboard so I can keep journal entries on it, or at least notes
of our adventures. Also have my camera, though I tend to be pretty lazy
about taking pictures. Probably will spend most of my camera time taking
Besides the trip, it’s been a crazy couple of weeks. Busy with work, trying
to get all my allergy shots in on time. Got my new, bifocal glasses today.
Adapted to them pretty quick, of course I got the fancy no line/progressive
lenses. Will be nice to be able to read small print book again without
straining. Been fighting a kind of stalemate battle with my
anxiety/depression. Keep trying to dig my heels in so it doesn’t get a bigger
foothold. Lots of reading, lots of movies. Some socializing, but it’s
been hard. I like being at Château Innsmouth, it’s full of things I like.
*wink* Oh well, I’ll deal.
Also been plotting on my Providence trip for Necronomicon 2017. It’s actually
a less stressful trip, even though I’m going solo. Only going to be gone
about half the time, and I’m pretty much staying in the same area of
Providence most of the time. Of course, there’s a lot of social activity,
but that’s with Lovecraftians, which previous experience tells me I’ll find
easier than most events. And I can always do my own rambles along Grandpa
Theobald’s streets. More plotting when I get back I think.
So that’s about it. About to call it a night and go to bed. Books to
read, and sleeps to have. If I don’t post anything before I leave, see
you all in August. Iä! Iä! Cthulhu Fhtagn!
It’s Sunday. Long weekends are a good thing, even if last night my mood
kind of tanked. Woke up kind of off still, but fighting it with Eurohorror,
noodles, and a good long shower. Self care, it’s what’s for breakfast.
Social time yesterday was fun, yay seeing friends. Random hot chocolate
craving was sated. Fought off the tanked mood with weird horror movies, and
geeking. Starting the process of bringing my OpenSuSE VMs all up to 42.2…
just in time for 42.3 to be released shortly. (also updated my Ubuntu VM,
but that wasn’t any big deal). Went to bed around midnight, so of course
a server lit up and wanted attention. Not a hard fix. just there was much
eyerolling on my part. Had to do some more basic foo this morning. Need
to log into the ticket system and close the automatic tickets generated at
Plans for today are to hang out with Amythest and Nymaz at some point.
Before that I need to swing by the office and pickup my laptop (I left
it on Friday). I only need it if I’m not at home. Was going to get it
yesterday, but I ended up going straight home from the gather. Not a big
fan of the work laptop (windows, ugg), but I don’t see a reason to buy a high
end laptop, or even try to setup my old Thinkpad to play nice with Carcosa
either. Laptops have little appeal to me now a-days, I can do most everything
with Cthäat Aquadingen (my Nexus 7) when I’m not at home, so why add another
device ? (Besides the shiny factor). Hmm, probably should update the
Thinkpad, it’s been a while.
While I’m waiting on the plan to come together, I’ve been watching Spanish
horror flicks First ‘Werewolf Shadow’. Paul Naschy vs vampires (he’s the
werewolf). Spent half the movie trying to remember where I’d heard the
soundtrack, they reused the music from one of the Blind Spanish Zombie
Knights Templar movies. Now watching ‘Beneath Still Waters’, flooded town
holds a hidden occult secret. Made by the same production company and filmed
around the same time as my beloved ‘Dagon’. It’s cheese, but it’s fun cheese.
That’s about all I have right now. Hoping for a quiet and restful rest
of the long weekend. Catch you all on the flipside.
Huzzah for Friday. Have had a up and down week. I’m still aiming upwards,
but I have had a bunch of anxiety foo dragging me down. Top of it was
doing my 6 month self eval. I hate doing them at the best of times, and
given my recent stress foo, and a format that I had never used before, well
it drove me kind of crazy. But, it’s done, and I’ve gotten a number of
things done at work, so I’m trying to balance out the bad with the logical
positive. Oh speaking of work, due to the new monitoring system we’re using,
we’ve started an oncall rotation. This is my week (Wed to Wed). It’s weird
to be officially on call, we’ve always done it on a ad-hoc basis, and it
worked well, but since we’re working with a separate monitoring group, that
really wouldn’t work. Oh well, it’s only one week out of three. Little
stress on that, just oddness.
But, it’s a 4 day weekend for me. Very few plans for the weekend, some
social time with friends. Some chores, some geek stuff, a lot of reading
is also planned. Starting off the night by listening to
‘The Haunter of the Dark. one
of my favorite HPL stories as a radio play. I’m also working on updates here
at Château Innsmouth, physical systems first, then starting to update the
VM horde. There will be Spanish Werewolves and other oddness in the movies
Speaking of oncall, got an alert from a server. Not a real oncall issue,
it’s a dev version of a ticket system, but I can fix it really quick and be
Well, that’s about all I have right now. Going to call this a post. Catch
you all later.
Hey there cultists, how goes ? It’s been a busy week at Carcosa Corp. Got
some of my assignments done, or at least within range. I also finally
got my passport in the mail. So I can officially enter Canada on my cruise
next month. Assuming Canada lets me of course.
Mood has generally improved. Still running into depression ninjas and
anxiety, but I’m getting past that with less effort. Books are back to
being fun, and I’m not as lacking in focus. These are good things. I’m
hoping it lasts.
Spent today watching movies with friends during the day, then came home.
My AC is leaking, and I’ve been trying to stop it, then trying to clean up
my bathroom and kitchen so if I have to get maintenance over here, it’s
not a huge deal. Well beyond hating people in Château Innsmouth. On
the plus side, I got some packages, a tshirt from the HP Lovecraft Historical Society and a cast fox skull that glows
in the dark from Catalyst
Studios. It’s good to know nifty geeky people, and buy their things.
You should buy their things. *wink*
Not much else, watching a Paul Naschy flick called ‘Inquisition’. I do
love the 70’s Eurohorror genre, especially the period pieces. Sorta like
the Hammer horror pieces cranked up to 11. Plus unlike the Hammer pieces,
I keep finding new (to me) flicks. Only problem is, they’re pretty much
an taste I don’t share with my friends. Oh well, some things are best
enjoyed in private.
That’s about it for right now, after the movie I’ll head to bed
and book and hopefully have a good night’s sleep. Night cultists.
Well it’s the weekend again, so it means I should throw some words on virtual
paper. Get the brainmeats out of the way quick, being back on seroquel
means I’m sleeping more/better, but my anxiety is still way out there.
(not expecting immediate fix, I know better). Depression lurks in a ninja
kind of way, I see good things, I feel good things, but it leaps out every
now and again in a nihilistic kind of way that reminds me that I’m still rather
broken. But I’ve been broken before, and I’ve put myself together,
repeatedly. I am a New Yorker after all, we’re survivors.
So enough strum und drang. What is best in life Vulpine? Well, I’m not
Conan, so lets start with books. Been reading a bunch of old school Mythos
still. Got a pile of other stuff to read, but other than a little history
it’s all tentaclular horrors. Listened/ing to a few books by Charlie
Stross to get in the mood for his latest Laundry File book next month.
Not the whole series, just enough to get back in the series. So many books,
so little time.
Went to see ‘The Mummy’ today. A solid bit of cheese, with a side of ham
from Russell Crowe. Yes it could have been much better, but it still was
fun and Sofia Boutella was a nice mix of creepy, evil, and lovely. Plus,
she was literally covered in hieratic script, so a walking book. Sign me
up for the cult please. *grin* Also, for any Lovecraftians who’ve seen it, did anyone look at the red jewel McGuffin and think ‘Shining Trapezohedron’ ? Or was that just me trying to make everything into a Mythos reference
What will I do tomorrow? Probably just chores and stuff. Been meaning to
clean up the bedroom for months now, may just pop an audiobook or podcast
in and spend a while in there trying to get things organized. This is
alongside a store run, laundry and similar stuff, so I may set reasonable
goals instead. Assuming I don’t just hide in bed with a book, or within
a movie marathon of cheese and gore. We’ll see. For now though, going to
call this a post before it’s technically Sunday. Laters cultists.